2020 is the year everyone's been waiting for, well at least I have. Since 1999, I have always imagined 2020 to be awesome. Now that we're here, I do believe that it will be as great as I imagined. Back in 1999 I was 7, and that 7 year old me have always pictured the 28 year old me to be tall, beautiful, and successful. Well, although I'm far from tall 😂, I still believe that I'm beautiful in my own way 💓and as for success, I have had my successes and I am still working for more. Success is very subjective though, its defined differently based on our life experience.

For me, success is when I managed to get rid of my bad habits and replace them with better ones. Over the years, I've had many bad habits replaced (wehoo) and I consider that to be one of the successes I have achieved. Success is also when I achieve something by working hard and not complaining (ok lah sometimes ada complain juga 😂 #guilty), but never giving up. Cry my heart out, be on the verge of giving up, but never actually give up. Success is also when I'm able to move on from failure and keep going.

Well actually... this is part of my 2020 resolution too:

I want to be good to myself. Dah terlalu banyak masa yang diluangkan untuk 'bersangka buruk' dengan diri sendiri. For all those times we doubt ourselves, blaming ourselves, thinking we're not good enough, it stops now. 2020 is the year we be good to ourselves. Believe in ourselves. Believe that we have the potential to be so much more *insert motivational music here* 😆


I have always push myself to be positive, but I know, sometimes its hard to stay positive when things are tough, but hey, remember that we are tougher!!💪 And this year, we will be tougher than ever.

Peribahasa Melayu "masuk bakul angkat sendiri" (membanggakan kejayaan atau kelebihan diri) sering digunakan dalam konteks negatif - seakan-akan kita tak patut berbangga dengan diri sendiri. Tapi kalau kita lihat peribahasa ni sebagai satu kata-kata semangat - kalau dah masuk dalam bakul, siapa lagi yang nak angkat kalau bukan kita sendiri? Ada ke orang lain nak tolong angkatkan bakul tu? Dah lah kita ni berat. 😆 Kalau dah masuk dalam bakul, memanglah susah nak angkat sendiri kan, tapi yang susah itulah yang berbaloi untuk diusahakan. Nothing good comes easy, right? Anyway my point is, its okay to tell ourselves that we are good. I think its okay to angkat bakul when no one is looking, because what matters is how we see ourselves. 👀 And this year, lets live and light up our spirit. Hidupkanlah semangat kita seperti api nan tak kunjung padam 🔥

Anyway, there's this one quote that I like:

"be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind dont matter, and those who matter dont mind" and I'd like to add: if "you dont mind, it wont matter". So if anyone's bitter by your effort in trying to be better, its their problem not yours 🤷

So, besides this all " be good to yourself" thing, other resolutions that I have been doing and wish to keep doing are to eat more healthily, do more exercises, learn new languages, learn more recipes, try more new things (I tried yoga for the first time in 2017 and I have been enjoying it till now!), give more to my family, shop less (this is very challenging ok 😝), to spend more time with the people I love, and to have a better spiritual relationship with the creator. Insyallah.



Btw, I spent 1/366 with by best friend Nuur Syuhada who came all the way from KL just to spend the new year holiday with me. Im blessed to have her in my life.